August 5 was the anniversary of Mari’s (my Mother) passing, so we all went out for dinner with my family.
She passed away in 2005, so it’s been 17 years already!
I’ve always been the type of person who forgets things surprisingly easily.
(I can listen to the same story over and over again as if it were my very first time, and I can forget important appointments as if they never happened.)
But I remember those days, especially the two weeks between her collapse and her death, very vividly.
It’s hard to believe that 17 years have passed since then because of the vividness of these memories.
Fionn is now more aware of death than ever before, so he is asking a lot of questions about it.
I’ve answered this question many times, “How did Mari-chan die?”
I always tell him that she was sick, but then he always says, “Mari-chan, if she was in pain, she should have gone to the hospital right away, then the doctor would have cured her!”
Then he always says “Yuki-chan, you always go to the hospital as soon as you feel pain! Mommy and Daddy go to the hospital right away, too!”
That’s Fionn’s way of saying, “Don’t die please!”
Whenever that conversation comes up, I always say, “Of course! I’ll go to the hospital right away and the doctor will fix us up!
and then Fionn agrees.
It’s a very normal conversation, but it always makes my heart ache.
Even when I write about it on my blog, it still makes me aches.
I think about it every time something happens, and I write about it here, but I am really lucky to be healthy and to have a happy family.
I am so grateful that everyone in my family is happy, so I am thankful for this normal thing.
I want to keep getting together with my family, eating delicious food, talking, laughing, and drinking with them forever.
Yuki-chan, who looks young but is now over 70 years old, must be missing his wife for the past 17 years.
Before Corona, we had almost decided to move to Australia.
But I’m glad that we can continue to support my dad now that we are going to be living in Japan for the time being!
I mean, I want him to make all the furniture for our house, so I don’t want him to get weak so easily! LOL!